takutomaruki: rosebursts (contemplatingwithcoffee)

[personal profile] takutomaruki 2025-02-27 11:39 am (UTC)(link)
Maruki had buried himself in an old, dust-laden book, something from the classics section that had long since been forgotten by the rest of the world. The kind of book that sat idly on a shelf for years, waiting for a reader who might never come.

He had liked the idea of that. A story no one bothered to read anymore.

But even as his eyes traced over the words, his mind wasn’t truly there. Not completely.

So when his phone buzzed against the desk, the sound cut through the stagnant silence like a razor’s edge.

His head snapped toward it.

And then—he stilled.

The notification on his screen was unmistakable.

Arisato: 1 New Message.

His fingers twitched. He could unlock it, open it, read it immediately. It would be so easy.

But instead, he exhaled slowly, deliberately, and pointedly put the phone back down.

His status would show online. That much was inevitable.

She would see that he had been there, that he could have responded instantly—but didn’t.

Let her sit with that.

Let her wonder.

He picked the book back up, but the words meant even less than before.

He wasn't really reading.

His mind was elsewhere, spiraling through the ever-tightening corridors of his own thoughts.

Arisato.

Thirty minutes passed before he finally allowed himself to pick up the phone again.

He kept his response measured, neutral.

Glad you made it home safely. And noted—I'll see what I can do. You sure you want to spend part of your free day with a middle aged weirdo like me?

You must have better options than that.

...Or are you just that determined to prove your flirting skills aren’t rusty?
takutomaruki: rosebursts (eh??? flustered)

1/2

[personal profile] takutomaruki 2025-02-27 09:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Welp, it seemed she was back to being busy again. Maruki had already set aside his phone and went back to reading, his foot bouncing on the floor as he counted the minutes with each tick of the clock and the easy papery sighs of the book. Usually one would think barely reading one chapter in a span of a 30 minutes was already too damn slow but it was in those moments that he found himself going slowly to savour each aspect of a book. Annotating it. Analysing it. Reviewing it. It helped him pass the time.

When he heard her ping again this time it was a more at ease. Just 5 minutes after-! Totally normal.

Though her text itself...

Cute.

Huh.


A breath hitched in his throat, and he exhaled through his nose, pressing his fist lightly against his lips, as though physically stopping himself from entertaining whatever that feeling was. He was at least a decade older than her—so how did she find him remotely cute?

...Well. That was something to shove deep into the back of his mind and never think about again.

He cleared his throat, shaking his head and focusing instead on the actual contents of her message. A hang-out. A casual day out with her, a chance to make her stay just a little longer.

The movies sounded like a safe option.

It had been a while since he last went to one, but there was a kind of escapism in it that suited him. To sit in the dark, lose himself in a world someone else had crafted—yes, that was something he could work with.
takutomaruki: art: 33_x_nm (i would cradle you)

[personal profile] takutomaruki 2025-02-27 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Finally, he typed back:

Movies sound good. I haven't really been to a cinema hall in ages though-! I swear if they ask me to get rid of my snacks...

Years, really. It had been years since he's watched movies with anyone. Between the research and the counselling sessions he never really found the time to dwelve into something romantic.

A movie was a good start—casual, low stakes, just two people watching something thought-provoking together. But after?

He couldn’t just leave it there.

He had to make sure she lingered a little longer, had to make sure she wasn’t too eager to leave.

Somewhere relaxing. Somewhere engaging. Somewhere that aligned with his reality.

That said, if you’re free after the movie, there’s an aquarium at Shinagawa I’ve been meaning to check out. I hear it’s a lovely spot from other students—something about the way the jellyfish are displayed, it’s supposed to be kind of mesmerizing. They have a really big Penguin exhibit there too :D
takutomaruki: art: 33_x_nm (let's clap our hands together)

[personal profile] takutomaruki 2025-02-27 11:23 pm (UTC)(link)
For a moment Maruki felt a pit in his stomach. Was he...too forward? Maybe he shouldn't have assumed more than he could have handled but-

Ah.

Guess there will be a new experience for either of us in store then :)
And hey, if the conversation dries up, at least the fish will be good company.
They don’t seem to have many complaints about their lives. Maybe we could learn a thing or two.
takutomaruki: art: 33_x_nm (owo what do we have here)

1/2

[personal profile] takutomaruki 2025-02-27 11:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Fish...gossip?
About what?

That there's plenty of fish in the sea?
takutomaruki: (getting bullied)

2/2

[personal profile] takutomaruki 2025-02-27 11:36 pm (UTC)(link)
...I will see myself out with that one. Wow.
takutomaruki: rosebursts (ugh...well damn)

[personal profile] takutomaruki 2025-02-27 11:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[Oh no.]

I am not falling for that bait. Oldest trick in the book.

[and hits send without even realizing what he just typed]
takutomaruki: rosebursts (erm well you see)

[personal profile] takutomaruki 2025-02-28 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
[and he realizes right after that he didn't even imply the pun in that one. God. Okay, this is a problem.

...does he have to make it a problem?]

...I should probably not be trusted with fishing I will be so honest with you
Used to do it when I was young and somehow I never got a fish.

A shoe though?
I tended to get those a lot.
takutomaruki: art: nono_ppppp (everything i could ever possibly love)

[personal profile] takutomaruki 2025-02-28 01:12 am (UTC)(link)
Now I am just left with the horrifying image of a fish having legs in my head but you know what?
They probably make better use of them then the drunkards who end up walking around with one shoe haha

They just steal the shoes because they can't bear the cost of losing their voice :' I suppose their greed would be justified.
takutomaruki: rosebursts (according to my calculations)

[personal profile] takutomaruki 2025-02-28 10:00 am (UTC)(link)
[She was a little silly, Takuto couldn't help but feel his lips pull up a little. I miss that.]

No need to worry on that front. I indulged myself and got one of the latest models just recently.
So, worst case scenario, I’ll just take the pictures for you.

Besides, I am the taller one here.
Might as well put the vantage point to good use—unless you plan on bringing a step stool?
Edited 2025-02-28 12:02 (UTC)
takutomaruki: art: 33_x_nm (this is my grave)

1/2

[personal profile] takutomaruki 2025-02-28 05:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Maruki's fingers hovered over the keyboard, his lips quirking into something dangerously close to an actual smile.

He almost typed something else—something gentler, something teasing to match her playful energy. But the warmth tugging at his chest left him vulnerable, cracked open just a sliver too wide.

His thumb froze over the screen.

For a second—just a fraction of a second—his mind wandered.

Rumi.

He could still feel the weight of her against him, the way she'd fit so perfectly when she'd curl up close without a second thought. She used to joke about how it was easier to elbow him because of their height difference and he always tended to tease her about it. Even laughing about how her size had nothing to do with her strength that he could never match upto.

He’d meant that.

His smile faded, the moment slipping between his fingers like sand.

You shouldn’t be letting this happen.

The walls he'd carefully built around himself creaked faintly—just faintly—as something warm and human began to seep through.

His thumb flicked back over the keyboard.
takutomaruki: art: 33_x_nm (can you see it too?)

A few mins after

[personal profile] takutomaruki 2025-02-28 05:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Duly noted.

If you suddenly start howling in the middle of the jellyfish exhibit, I suppose I'll just have to take it as my cue to run.

takutomaruki: rosebursts (for my research)

[personal profile] takutomaruki 2025-02-28 07:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Howling with you? Now that’s an interesting proposal.

I’m not entirely convinced getting escorted out of the aquarium for unsettling the aquatic life would be a great way to end the evening, though.

That said—there is some psychological merit to it. Vocal expression as an emotional release is actually quite common. Yelling into the void, primal screaming therapy... Even crying functions similarly.

So, theoretically, howling could be beneficial.

But I do wonder—would it be more effective in solitude, or do you think it’s the shared experience that makes it therapeutic?
takutomaruki: art: 33_x_nm (does any of it even matter?)

[personal profile] takutomaruki 2025-02-28 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
But that’s just a temporary reprieve, isn’t it?

People—broken people—cling to pain as much as they seek to escape it. Trauma binds them together, but it doesn’t always heal them. If anything, it deepens the wounds, makes them sharper, more inescapable.

There’s a reason why shared suffering often feels like understanding. People are drawn to those who echo their pain, but that doesn’t mean they’ve found true harmony. More often than not, they’re just feeding into the cycle—mistaking the resonance of their wounds for something restorative.

(no subject)

[personal profile] takutomaruki - 2025-03-01 05:28 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] takutomaruki - 2025-03-02 01:17 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] takutomaruki - 2025-03-02 15:52 (UTC) - Expand